I made this blog only a few days ago. As I said in my previous post, I am an atheist (although agnostic would be closer to the mark) but I would like to find God and have faith. A well-meaning Christian friend of mine that I used to work with is the man that gave me the bible (a Gideons new testament & psalms) that I now study. Also, I asked him a question a few days ago regarding what he believed to be proof of the existence of God. I won’t go into detail about his many responses, but what happened today was interesting. He sent me a video debunking the idea that the story of Jesus is a reimagination of pagan stories (see video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=30AunYXtYDg ). I didn’t reply as I didn’t have the time to watch it immediately, I was getting ready to go to the gym.
I began walking but needed to go to my local supermarket to get some water for my workout. I decided I would just listen to the video through my headphones. The video was very interesting. It systematically shut down claims made about pagan gods that made them like Jesus. NOW, this is when things got a little strange. The video began talking about Jesus’ crucifixion and it being accepted as a true event by historians. At this point I was about to pay for my water at a Pay-Yourself machine. I looked up and saw Jesus on the cross. On the back of a t-shirt.
It seems bizarre that I read so much into this, but it shook me up. It seemed like a sign, and I’ve never seen a sign before. It has also crossed my mind that it is just an extraordinary coincidence. More likely? Probably. My ego is not so large that I believe God chose that exact moment for me to see the image of the crucifixion. Although that rational thought won in that instance, I do have some regret. I wonder if it really was a sign from God. Was I meant to talk to that man? I chose not to as I thought I was being superstitious, and because he seemed pre-occupied. If I could go back, I would have spoken to him. Perhaps then I would know more if it was a sign.
Whether I was right or wrong in not talking to that man, one thing is certain. If I see what could be perceived as a sign again, I’ll follow the sign. What would I have to lose?